not even mom thinks i'm a good girl

it feels as though something grew inside me. a second skin, but made of water. like the walls of a cell. but impermeable. and if you touch me, the nervous impulses dont reach my brain. the skins swallows them. can't feel. but if you push too hard, if you touch me unexpectedly. with a bang. if you hit me or press certain spots on my skin the cell wall breaks down and i drown in it. everyday.